When I say ‘dreams’, I don’t mean the type where you are girlfriend to a member of 5 Seconds of Summer and awaken thinking ‘well done subconscious’. I’m talking of the type that drives us to do things, aspirations, goals in life. I am currently reaching the age where parties containing a lot of adults/relatives include any questions from the following;
– “So, how old are you now?”
– “What subjects have you chosen to take?”
– “Got many friends?”
– “What are you going to do at university?”
– “What do you want to do for a career?”
I am quite good at answering the first three questions; “no, not eight”, “too many” and “obviously, have you seen my sparkling personality”, but I have no clue about the last two. Sometimes I pretend to mishear and start talking about the weather (I’m English, it’s an acceptable topic to discuss), but if it’s someone who I haven’t seen since I was about two and won’t see for another few decades then I’ll say something to make them impressed, like “either an astrophysicist or a microbiologist, depending on what the pay’s like” and then saunter away to the pudding end of the buffet. Of course, that opens the door to the vortex in my mind where all I can think is “oh god, I have no idea what I want to do with my life and the house prices are going up and I’m going to live with my parents until I’m ninety five. WHAT ABOUT THE HOUSE PRICES?!”, and as I’m sure you know, an existential crisis is a bit of a downer on the party mood and tends to leave me determined to marry some rich footballer.
But even when I’m not being reminded by someone with three children, a big house and a Labrador that I am a clueless youth, it is noticeable that a lot of people my age know exactly what they are going to do or at least have a subject that they really, really love, but I have no clue! The careers we are told about tend to be a bit rubbish as well, generally ‘mathematician’, ‘writer’ or ‘scientist’. But anyway, I’m sure something will come along. Anyone else like this? Comment below, but if you can think of any careers I haven’t heard of then please tell me! Oh dear I need to go and eat a lot of cake. TTFN.